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Name: Sara
Birthday: 10/12/1981
Gender: Female
Interests: Beholding His beauty, Reading, Hanging out with my amazing friends-and they are amazing let me tell you, Traveling, IHOP, Adventures, Challenging conventional thinking, Roadtrips-with people I love and by myself, Drinking coffee, Intimacy, Worship, Waterfalls, The Romance of Life, Music that moves the soul, Long Conversations, Sunsets and Sunrises, The Kingdom of God, Any body of water, Thinking- I do that one a lot! Laughing- I do that one more than you would believe, Little kids-I love em.
Expertise: falling down and getting picked back up. seventy times seven.
Occupation: Administrative
Industry: Nonprofit
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Yahoo:  rodspeedy
Member Since:
12/3/2003
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| well, at least for a visit in 2 weeks. It feels good to have some sort of time frame around the next step. I'm going to go check things out, the job and the overall community of people that have gathered there. In other news...I've been on a NPR streak lately, again. You can learn so much random stuff in one day. From things like, how to cook a great crossant, to why the ACLU is suing the Michigan Secretary of State, to the content of John McCain's daugther's video blog and even why the Danish are the happiest people around. I like information that makes me think and NPR is usually good for a few thoughts...that usually lead to more questions than anything...that usually lead to more thoughts...you're smart, you get the picture.
I had a conversation with my mom today that made me realize even more what an incredible woman she is. I know it sounds cliche but I really would not be who I am today without her. I've been forced home again and at first there were no complaints and then it got really hard and now I'm entirely grateful again. For any of you who have heard my newest song, "unhinged" you've experienced a little of the journey of this last month and a 1/2 for me. Its been intense to say the least and God has really used this time to bring to my attention some things in my heart. Its comforting though to know that he always takes the easiest route to get to the deepest places in us. For anyone who really knows me they know that not only is eternity written on my heart but there's also a big sign around my neck that says something like "on my way" or "looking for a city" or "take me now"...depending on the day :) Anyway, I look forward to the day when my family and everyone I love is living together, exactly like we were made to. And so I wait, with eager anticipation. | | |
| asleep at 10:30 pm...awake at 2:30 am.
i've surmised its a good time for an update.
for anyone who doesn't know already, i'm back in michigan for the holidays.
the nanny job, the one i loved...its over.
the family ran into some unexpected (obviously) financial difficulties with their business and had to let me go. like my sleep tonight, my time in ohio was unexpectedly shortened.
it was great while it lasted.
good thing there's always home, otherwise i'd be sleeping on someone's couch right now. i was offered a lot of those by the way and spare bedrooms...mostly in other countries though.
i'm working at macy's for the christmas season. might as well make a little (and i stress little) money and get ridiculous discounts on christmas gifts.
someday soon i'll have a moment of enlightenment and know what in the world the next step is. (cheers to that)
for now though, i'll try to go back to sleep to the words of one of my favorite songs
"now to you. now to you who is able to keep me. now to you who loves me more than i know. have your glory. have my love. here's your glory. here's my love. both now and forever be clothed in glory lord. both now and forever i'll give you all my love.
you who hold the seven stars in your hand, hold my heart.
take my heart lord come and seal it.
its all i have to give."
-Luke Wood, The Law and the Prophets
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| Community: similar character; agreement; identity: community of interests. (one of dictionary.coms 13 definitions and the one whose meaning displays what I am missing) I could add another word...Friendship.
I so so appreciated and was often overwhelmed at the generosity of God in my life when it came to community while I was living in Pasadena. More specifically when I was living "in community" in the Haggai house.
I loved sharing in the lives of people who were sharing in mine.
I loved the fact that if I was bored or needed to socialize all I had to do was walk across the hall, or walk downstairs or call out to Carrie or Suzanne from my room and there were these amazing people that would appear. Friends are always a phone call away until they move to another country, which they seem to quickly be doing.
I loved the fact that my best friend and her husband lived downstairs in an attached apartment where the door was always open and the conversation was always great.
I loved our Wed. night house dinners and our Sun. morning breakfasts.
I loved...
I used to appreciate community. Now I long for it.
It's hard not to be nostalgic on days like your birthday. My family was going to come down and then after my excitement had built I had to tell them that they couldn't anymore from circumstances beyond anyone's control. And then I felt it....something I haven't felt for soooo long. Loneliness. And I cried.
After being in Ohio for almost 2 months now I've remembered what that emotion feels like. It really has been a long time. Years in fact.
Loving my job. Absolutely no question about that but I cannot believe that I still haven't really met a single person my own age... or even close to my own age unless 40 really is the new 30. Hopefully this changes soon. The plan is to go this week to a life group I just heard about at the church I've started going to (yes, I am attending church) which is also the same church the family goes to. Hopefully (please God, please) I will meet some people I can have some sort of "community" with.
I read a quote today
"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."
-Anais Nin
Here's to other worlds.
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| So I'm back from a fun, and slightly chaotic birthday weekend with my family. Isabel and Austin had a party together for their 1st and 3rd birthday's. Weekend trips go by so fast and I'm back in Ohio and have a big day ahead of me tomorrow. It's good to be back with the family here.
Here's a picture I took a few weeks ago with Sarah in front of the beautiful house I get to live in (well, about 60% of the beautiful house). I'm off to bed.....
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